My Worst Habits

Sleeping late and over thinking are two of my worst habits.
I really have a bad sleeping schedule. I can't sleep earlier than 10 p.m. Sometimes I simply want to stay awake without doing anything, just playing scenarios over my head. And a lot of times I badly want to sleep but I can't. I don't know why I always have a hard time sleeping no matter how tired I am. The pimples on my face say a lot about my poor sleeping schedule also the fact that I didn't get any taller. Really. It is one of the major reasons why I have this "face on my pimples" rather than having pimples on my face. Like.... Seriously. I always ended up regretting the time that I slept late but I constantly repeat it over and over again. It always take me 36388373646484 positions before I can finally fall asleep.
Over thinking. I am always creating problems that weren't  even there in the first place. I always think about the what if's in my life especially at night. I wasn't a talker ever since. I always keep my thoughts to myself. I solve problems on my own. I discover things on my own. I don't want to bother the people around me. I don't want to be a burden to someone. I keep thinking the past mistakes that the I did eventhough it happened a couple of years ago. I keep thinking the things that I should have done and undo the things that I did which I know won't happen no matter how hard I try. 

And there goes my worst habits. Not being able to sleep and over thinking are seriously the toughest kind of combination. Since it's a habit, no matter how bad they are I keep on repeating them over and over again. And I can't do anything about it. I don't want to consider sleeping pills cause I don't want to be dependent on it. Sometimes I was able to divert my attention to other things just for me not to over think. Sometimes it works but most of the time it doesn't. 

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