Silver

Originally posted on

September 7, 2016

Today marks my 25th year of existence. I can still remember how I planned on celebrating my 25th birthday at Disneyland in Hong Kong. Unfortunately it's not yet destined to happen.

Twenty-four years have passed. It was one great adventure. A lot of things have happened and there are still a lot yet to unfold. It was a roller coaster ride. There are downs and of course the ups.

Where I am now is based on the result of my own choice. I chose to stay on the safe side. I chose comfort and convenience. I've been through one of the toughest times of my life in the last four years. I told myself a countless times that I'm already giving up, but it took me couple of years to finally stand up for my words. It was a tough decision to make. I became too fed up with countless frustrations and I am not a masochist who enjoys the agony of being hurt. I am not strong enough to endure every pain.

I decided it's time for me to live in the moment without dreading about the future. Eventually I learned how to embrace every moment of my life. I lift all my fears and worries to Him. When I almost lose all my hope, He gave me reasons not to fear, for He is always there to guide me and offer me a brand new opportunity. He taught me how to enjoy every moment and showed me what truly matters and more importantly to appreciate the simplest things in life. He showed me that life is just simple.

There are times when I know that I am asking for too much more than I deserve. There are also moments when He give me something which I doubt I truly deserve and I'm truly grateful for those moments. I may not be where I imagined and planned to be but this is where I supposed to be. I am here for a reason and with a purpose.

There are times when I feel so worthless and useless, but I know that these moments will pass. It's okay to feel the pain and hurt for a little while. It's inevitable. Life is not always a rainbow, we will come to the point of breaking down. But always remember that tomorrow is a brand new day, a sunlight awaits after every sunset. Hitting the rock bottom is what makes us strong. It's only a matter of how we deal with it. It's always about our perspective in life.

Thankfully, throughout the years I am beginning to learn how to control my emotions and not to be easily affected by trivial things. I am trying to act the way a person at my age should properly act. I am trying to be mature enough. I know there are still a lot to learn and improve. I am trying my hardest to be the best possible version of myself.

I am not yet sure what the future has in store for me. All I know is that I am not afraid anymore for I know His plans are always better than mine.

A brand new year for me has just began. I am yet to unfold what this page has for me. Whatever it is, all I can say is CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Let's get it on.

Let's do this.

25 years and I am ready to face the world and embrace it with my arms wide open.

Disneyland? In God's perfect timing, I know I'll get there eventually. But for now all I can say is thank you, Lord, for this day. I really could not ask for more. From the bottom of my heart I really mean it. You always give me so much more than I deserve. I am truly blessed and fortunate with my family. No words can express how happy and contented my heart is at the moment. I love you, Lord. Thank you so much. I am beyond grateful for this day.

This is the first day of the rest of my life...

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