Ang sarili kong mundo

Minsan kailangan natin maging manhid Minsan kailangan natin maging bato Minsan kailangan natin maging matapang Minsan kailangan natin maging matatag Minsan kailangan natin mahalin ang sarili natin Minsan kailangan natin sundin ang sinisigaw ng puso at isip natin Minsan kailangan natin gawin kung ano gusto natin Minsan kailangan natin unahin ang sarili natin Minsan kailangan natin piliin kung saan tayo mas sasaya Minsan kailangan natin mapag-isa Minsan kailangan natin mag-drama Tanong ko lang Gaano kadalas ang minsan?

In the past three years I've been in a constant battle trying to enter in the world where I thought I belong, but I guess it wasn't really meant for me. It took me countless rejections and disappointments before I decided to leave it behind and just move forward. It was a tough decision but I have to do it for myself. It's one way to be genuinely happy and to live my life fully without any excess baggage. I have to free myself from all the burdens that I had for the past three years. Today, October 12, 2015 is a good day for me to start all over again. Since it's Monday, a brand new week just started. I'm leaving everything to God, all the burdens and the discomfort. I'm still on the process of moving on and coping up. Surely, it might take a while before I totally accept the fact, but here's the thing, I'm already starting with the process. It's hard, but I have to, for myself. I'm done with all the disappointments, frustrations and rejectio

When was the last time that I wrote in this blog? I'm writing now because this would be my farewell blog. I will be leaving this blog 'cause I want a fresh start where there would be less drama and just focus on the positive side of life. A new perspective where I can only see the silver lining of everything. So, what now?  The past years have been one unexpected ride. Years after I graduated from college, three years to be exact. (Sige na nga, magtatagalog na, di na mapanindigan eh.)  Ilang months before I graduated from college, pinlano ko na ang mga mangyayari sa buhay ko. Tipong siguradong-sigurado ako na mangyayari lahat ng pinlano ko. Sabi ko, magpapahinga ako ng ilang buwan bago ako maghanap ng trabaho. Sabi ko mga two-three months okay na. Tapos ayon, grumadweyt. Masaya, sarap sa pakiramdam ng makatapos. Di ako nag-antay ng dalawa o tatlong buwan bago ako mag-apply, kasi ang mga kaibigan ko ay nag-aya nang mag-apply. Sumama naman ako agad. Ayon, God knows everything tha

Nalilito, nalilito ako ngayon ay lito. Ano nga ba ang dapat sundin? Ang sinasabi ng damdamin? O ang isipan na hindi alam ang saloobin? Sabi ng isip, "sige, bakit hindi mo subukan?" Ngunit itong puso ay madaming agam-agam.  Ano nga ba ang dapat sundin? Ang isipan na nag-aasam? O ang pusong ayaw nang masaktan? Hindi kaya marahil ay napagtanto na ang kasagutan sa tanong Ngunit nangangamba sapagkat  maaring hindi ito ang naaayon Ano nga ba ang mas matimbang? Ang isip na umaasa? O ang pusong pagod nang umasa? Desperado ka lang bang talaga o may mithiin ka talagang maganda Sa mundong walang kasiguradohan Ano ang iyong pinanghahawakan? Ito na ba ang matagal mo nang hinihintay? O ito ay magiging  parte din lamang ng isang paglalakbay? Kung ano man ang magiging desisyon Sana ito ay naaayon Hindi lamang sa isip na naglalayon Bagkos ay ang puso, sana din ay sumang-ayon Hilo, lito at ako. Ako ngayon ay hilo at lito.

Dear Self, Stop acting like the one who's always hurting. Stop acting like every word of people around you was meant for you. Not everything is all about you. There comes a point where you will be hit by the words of people. Sometimes it's inevitable to think that maybe it's really meant for you but keep this in mind, people might utter the words that they don't really mean. When you hear something that hurts you, don't be paranoid to think that those words were intended just for you. As long as there's no exact mentioning of your name, it's not you. Simple as that. Don't let every word affect your mood. Act as if you did not hear anything. Just remember these things: Not everything is all about you. and Always choose your battles. Stop letting other people affect your mood. They aren't even thinking of you. Don't invest even just the smallest portion of your mind into something that is not worth investing your time and effort. Don't create p