In My Own World

Is it wrong to prioritize oneself? Is it wrong to pursue one's personal wants? Is it wrong to put oneself first? It is said that love means sacrifice. You have to be willing to sacrifice just to show the people you love that you love them. You are willing to endure anything for the sake of your loved ones. But what if you're no longer happy with how things are going? What if respect is slowly fading away? Is it still worth sacrificing? Or is it better to walk away before things begin to worsen. You go and search for a refuge, though you're not sure if it's the right thing to do. All of a sudden you think of leaving. You want to start your life anew and chase your dreams. You want to pursue your lifelong dreams that have been long overdue. But you're torn between sacrificing for the people that you love, and sacrificing in pursuit of your dreams. Somehow you know that staying is the proper choice regardless of how things might be going right now. Even so, you couldn...

What if I got my dream job? What if I had my own place—an apartment perhaps? What if I could get everything that I wanted? What if I could sleep 12 hours a day? What if I could eat everything that I wanted, without gaining any weight? What if I could go anywhere I wanted to? What if I had more money? What if I had a perfect family? What if I liked where I am?  What if I was more patient with things? What if I was more understanding? What if I wasn't an overthinker? What if I was an extrovert? What if I wasn't shy? What if I was fearless?  What if time moved slow when we're happy? What if time moved fast when we're sad or in pain? What if we could turn back time? To make up for our past mistakes, or to simply experience the good old days again. What if we could fast forward time when we don't want what's happening around us? What if everything was certain? What if we weren't afraid to take any risks? What if we knew we could never fail? What if everyone had t...

There are different ways on how our heart could possibly get broken. Being broken hearted does not only limit to a failed romantic relationship. You could get your heart broken even if you're single, and no matter what your age is.  A little girl might get broken hearted when her mother doesn't allow her to have some ice cream. To some children they'd feel like their hearts shattered into pieces when their crush ignored them. Others would get heart broken for a failed exam.  There's this girl who experienced a major heartbreak recently. She felt like her heart turned into pieces because all of a sudden some things had to change. She never imagined that it would happen one day. There were some hints here and there, but she was in denial. Eventually, she faced the truth and accepted the fact. But it doesn't mean that she had also readied her emotions. When she started to sense like a change would likely to happen, she talked to God about it. She said it was the second...

When you feel like you're not good at anything, and a certain task is given to you, your first instinct would be to doubt yourself. You would ask yourself if you could do it even if it's just a simple one.  When you feel like you're not good at anything, you would always second guess your capabilities.  When you feel like you're not good at anything, you would just accept the negative things that others say about you even if they're not true. You would accept all the criticisms and whatnots. You would easily believe them when they say, "you can't."  When you feel like you're not good at anything, you would always feel less of a person. Even when other people compliment you, you wouldn't believe them. You wouldn't believe them when they say good things about you. You wouldn't feel like you are good enough, and that you don't deserve any praises. At times you would even belittle yourself.  When you feel like you're not good at any...

Before pandemic, I got hooked watching concerts of some of my favorite international artists. My first major concert experience was in 2018. I enjoyed it a lot that's why since then I looked forward watching another live performance again. I was actually supposed to watch two concerts in 2020. But then pandemic happened, and the rest was history.   When the world somehow started to feel okay again, some borders were reopening, some travel restrictions have eased and concert producers were announcing the resume of their postponed events, I know that it will be sooner rather than later that I get to watch another concert again. One of the artists that I've been wanting to watch perform live was The Script. They've been here in the country for several times already, but I wasn't able to watch them.   I wanted to watch them live and join them singing at the top of my lungs the opening line from their song 'Breakeven' that goes like, "I'm still alive but I...