In My Own World

"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different?" – C.S. Lewis  Over the past 3 years, I realized that I changed. The pandemic had really made an impact in my life. I don't see things the way I did 3 years ago. Nowadays, I see life and people differently from how I look at them before.  I realized that some people only care for themselves. Not all people are as genuine as they appear. There are those who say good things about you in front of your face, but those same people are also the ones who would say mean things about you to other people. It doesn't matter whether you're their relative or friends, just so they appear better than you or you look bad in their story. People are willing to drag someone down just to make themselves look good to others. They want to appear like they are the only ones who care. They could say bad things about you for their own benefit. I used to prioritize other people's needs b...

Most of us girls grew up watching fairy tales. We probably got our idea of a happily ever after from Cinderella and her Prince Charming. Then we transitioned to chick-flicks and rom-coms as grew older. We couldn't help but wish to have the same love story as what Lara Jean and Peter Kavinsky have. And as we matured, our idea of love changed. Our concept of a romantic relationship evolved. Ali and Noah showed us a more realistic kind of love. Apart from that, there are some real couples that we know who proved to us that relationships aren't like in movies. That there's a fine line between fantasy and reality. That happily ever after rarely happen to people and romance isn't for everyone. Most of us were born in a society where by the time you reached a certain age you should have your own family. You should be married. You should have kids. When you're in your 30's and people ask you if you are married and you answer no, most of them would pity you. It's as ...

"If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen."  We have different ways on how we deal with issues in our life. Others are very upfront. They voice out the issue right away, and try to find a solution to the problem by talking to the person involved. While there are some people who'd rather choose to remain silent and wait for things to change on their own without even addressing the issue. And there are those who would rather leave when it becomes too hot in the kitchen.  There was a point in my life when I badly want to leave. If only I had anywhere else to go, I wouldn't stay where I am now. Actually, the desire is still present. I want to leave because I couldn't take the heat anymore. I felt like I'm going to lose my mind anytime. I couldn't stand everything that's been going on around me lately. Unfortunately, I have nowhere else to go. So I stay.  People want to leave due to a lot of reasons. When respect is no longer being served. Wh...

I'm neither married nor I've been in a relationship. I've never even dated anyone. I had a complete family until my father passed away a decade ago. It's just that I'm curious about why some marriage end aside from infidelity. Disclaimer: I have nothing against divorce, annulment or legal separation. It's their life after all, so who am I to decide or judge them?  Nowadays I've been hearing stories about some married couples, especially celebrities, end up divorcing or annulled only after months of being married. How come that they realized they aren't compatible only after marrying each other? All I hear were vague stories, and I am just curious about what really happened. Especially those without any third party involved. And when they said that they've fought hard enough to make their marriage work, into what extent of their patience, understanding, love, and respect it took for them to decide that it's really over? Personally, I view marriage...