In My Own World

11 years have passed since the day that I thought the coming days will be as light as a cotton ball. Here I am now, laughing at the joke I cracked myself 11 years ago.  11 years of a roller coaster ride. I've experienced the worst and the best days of my life, so far. Mostly worst. I've gained and I've lost. I laughed and I cried. I fell many times then I rose again. I was rejected numerous times. I've experienced the worst kind of pain that I've ever experienced to date. I fought many silent battles that no one knew about. Well, I'm still fighting every now and then. I dreamt of big things only to realize they weren't so easy to reach. I looked highly at myself only to realize that I am not special. If any, I am just an ordinary person trying to fit in, trying to belong. Most importantly finding a place in this world.  11 years of waiting. 11 years of dealing with uncertainties and just going where life is taking me. It's hard to wait for something that...

Time is powerful. You cannot take it back once it's gone. You cannot make it stop. You cannot make it fast. It can never be recycled. It's up to you how you want to spend it. You can either waste it or make use of it, there's no in between.  Time dictates most of our daily activities. Time tells us when we are going to eat breakfast, lunch, snack or dinner. It tells if we're already past our bedtime or if we overslept. It also tells us when we are going to work or when we should leave. Without looking at the time we won't know what day, month or year we are in. Most of the time, we based what we do through time. Personally, I feel disoriented if I didn't know what time it is. When my day becomes so busy and I get to be too focused with what I'm doing that I don't have any idea what time it is already, it feels so strange. I feel like I'm lost. Time is one of the most precious gifts you can give to someone. It's priceless. It's one of the simp...

There are a lot of reasons why a person cries. Crying entails various forms of emotions. It could be out of pain, anger, disappointment, frustration, sadness, or even happiness. It could also be because someone made you cry because he/she hurt you. But one thing is for sure, we don't cry out of nothing. We only cry for the things that mean the most to us.  Most often than not, we try to hide when we cry. Because once we do, we don't know when our tears are gonna stop. And sometimes, we don't want or we don't know how to explain to other people why we are crying once they see us. We're afraid they're gonna judge us because they won't understand. So we hide somewhere we can be alone. It could be in the shower or in our room. We go to a place where we can feel secure and that's where we release the tears that we've been holding on.  Each of us has our own different kryptonite— our weakness. Something or someone that could really make us cry in an instan...

In the midst of our everyday hustle and bustle, we tend to forget that we need to rest. We always aim to be productive. We tend to forget how to be still and just relax. Some people have a tendency to over work and forget to take a break. At times we forget that we need a break from our daily routine. We need to recharge our battery. We even need a break from people that we normally talk to and see everyday. Sometimes we need to distance ourselves from them especially when they are becoming toxic for us. Though we feel okay, we have no idea how much we needed a break. Not until someone invited us for a short getaway will we able to realize how much we needed it.  Even for a day or two we have to take a break from our usual activity. We have to spend a day doing nothing. Doing nothing includes a complete rest and relaxation and not think about anything. We have to unwind at least once a year. We can go to a place where we feel secure or where we think we could spend a few days of ju...

Dear You, I just want you to know that your crush having crush with your best friend wouldn't be the most heartbreaking thing you're gonna experience. There are still tons of unfortunate events you're going to face. In school, along the sidewalks, while you are commuting going to school and even in your own home. Many heartbreaking and soul crushing event you're yet to witness. Don't even get me started with people. Enjoy every moment of your youth. Enjoy playing outside with your cousins. Go swimming in the sea as many times as you want to. Play hide and seek as often as you'd like to. Eat mangoes as many as you could. Laugh as often as you could. Tell stories to your cousins and friends as many as you could. Enjoy it while you are still everyone's favorite. Because I'll tell you, you wouldn't do and experience these things anymore once you're a grown up. You're gonna miss doing these things. Never take your childhood for granted. Do not be ...